Should I seriously let this get to my head? No. Besides, it was three years ago but reading it just crushed my heart a little. Just knowing that he had loved someone so much in the past questions why is he with me now? When he could have stayed with her.

"i will always be there for you dont ever doubt that...i think about you every second of every minute of every hour of every day of every month...i love you _____ i truly do."
THREE YEARS AGO! Ugh.

I miss him so much. I want to be with him. I need him. I hate being so far away from my love. I hate crying at night. Just a few more weeks till I go back to Hawaii for Christmas. Everyday just seems to go by slowly and slowly. I made him a Build-A-Bear and named him Damien; he wants to name our son that this bear will be our baby for now lol. I sleep with him every night and dream about Ho'o, about us. I can't wait to be in his arms after 4 months;<333